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Dear Little One by Hannah Davis (West Stanton Store)

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Oh baby boy, my wonderful little rainbow. You came at a time when daddy and I needed you. 

 

I remember finding out, thinking there is no way I could be pregnant again so quickly. I remember your dad had just booked tickets to go to the US where he was going to be for 3 weeks. He was nervous, I pretended I wasn't. I counted down the days till he came back, hoping you stayed in my tummy and kept going.

 

You were born, I remember feeling so empowered and amazed that I managed it. I was so certain you were a poop, even when you lay beneath me (me still on my hands and knees totally in shock) and peed in my face, I was still certain you were a poop. Hormones make me do/say/feel weird things.  We called you Biggy when you were a baby because you were so small and it was so funny because Daddy is so big.

 

I've loved you more and more every day since then. I love everything about you, how funny you think you are, how you communicate without saying anything, how you clap and look around to make sure everyone claps along. You're smile is contagious and I cant believe how proud I am of you. 

 

You make me the best version of myself Biggy.

 

xxx

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Dear Little One by Amanda Neill (Yours Truly!)

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When I first found out I was growing a baby… 

I was SO excited and in the same breath totally and utterly shocked! You were my best surprise. We hadn’t planned to become parents now, I was studying to become an Occupational Therapist and Daddy was just starting his career. I remember being at home alone and taking a test whilst messaging your Auntie Charmaine saying “what if I am having a baby!?” She replied, “I will say congratulations and scream!!!”

I hadn’t told your Daddy I was taking a pregnancy test… He was at work and I was on my university Easter holidays. I can still hear my lecturer saying, “Now ladies, make sure you don’t get pregnant, this is a 3 year course!” - little did I know you would start growing inside me just a few months later. 

I was so happy to become a mummy, so excited to be on this unexpected journey. I wasn’t worried about being able to care for you, I loved babies and children and have been around them a lot; your cousin Faith was only a few weeks old, I was just more concerned about the whole birth thing but you don’t need to know about that! After I had gotten over the shock, I just felt excited, I felt like perhaps you had chosen me rather than I had chosen you. I felt like I had a purpose and that I was needed. You made me a Mama and I’ll love you forever. 

Remember, you were my best surprise! 

Love you,

Mummy x

Mummy and 4 day old Sebastian xx

Mummy and 4 day old Sebastian xx